Life and Reading During Lockdown

Yesterday I did a compilation of what I have been watching. I thought I’d share what else I have been doing during this latest lockdown in this post. After all, my last life update was last year. I realize that my Instagram stories have become sort of my daily diary, so to speak. But I think the occasional update on here would also be nice.

Life lately

The reason I haven’t updated much here is that nothing much has happened. Just when it started to look as if life would open up again, here in India, we had one more wave of Covid – disheartening, depressing, and deadly.


Covid

Last year’s Covid lockdowns were bad. This year, it’s been awful. Last year, the deaths were a little far away. But now, it seems like family members and friends are getting sick. Covid is suddenly feeling more real, not just a friend of a friend of a friend, but MY friend. MY loved one. It is creeping into my family and friends’ lives, and it certainly puts things into perspective fast. These days, I dread my Facebook feed, which is rapidly filling up with RIPs.

The only good news re: Covid is that my parents and hubby are fully vaccinated! Hooray. And it’s been great to hear of most of the 65+ and older in our lives getting their shots scheduled and done.

Me, I got one shot done and am waiting for the second dose of the Covishield vaccine – but with all the shortages on currently, no idea when I will be able to get my turn. Fingers crossed it happens within the next 2/3 months🤞.


Kids

Kids both remain in remote learning…it almost seems normal now, especially as we have already crossed the one-year mark of the first two-week shutdown. Do you remember when shutting down for two weeks seemed crazy/unbelievable? Not to sound Pollyannaish, but it’s been nice to have them home too, to have time with them. Once we go back to normal…whenever that is…I know I’ll miss it. I wish I could enjoy this part more now. But isn’t that how life in general goes?

I do think Piglet is coping better with the lockdowns. He has his best friend right next door and has spent time with him and some other kids who live close by. Snubnose is different – she’s always led a pretty active life, and school especially was something she really enjoyed and looked forward to. Plus, she’s old enough to understand the seriousness of Covid fully – she knows people struggling right now, and she’s dealing with a fair amount of anxiety.

It’s hard enough being a teen, but a teen in this environment? It’s crazy.


Hobbies

Gardening

I have taken to gardening (or rather cultivating indoor plants), fitness, and cooking. Everyone I know says gardening is good for my well-being. But try telling my plants that. After a great start early this year, most of my plants look brown, yellow, and withered. Looking around sadly, I log the devastation: the anthuriums have gone from fine to inexplicably brown and crispy. The Livistona (which was doing wonderfully until last week) has succumbed to some weird slow browning of the leaves. My areca palms are inexplicably not growing beyond a point. The only plants I can consider a success right now are my ZZ plant, my bird’s nest fern (hanging in there), and my money plant.

Can you derive psychological benefits from gardening even when it’s an absolute disaster? I’m starting to think perhaps you can. My gardening debacle is gradually forcing me to confront my essential powerlessness. I’ve struggled with that feeling for months; that lack of agency. Most of us have. So rather than finding purpose and perspective through the small triumph of growing things, I’m practicing acceptance. I’m not giving up on gardening entirely, but I’m giving up on believing I can control what happens. Let whatever is eating everything keep chomping; let things wither and curl up as I experiment with more or less water; let the weird, probably fungal, yellow spots creep across leaves. In the grand scheme of things, what does it matter?

Fitness

I have had better luck with fitness. I finally gave up on the idea of going in person to gyms and have embraced online classes. I even bought weights, a skipping rope, and resistance bands!

Snubnose has also shown an interest, and it’s great to be able to push each other to achieve our goals. Great for mental health as well! In fact, online classes are working so well for both of us; I doubt I will go to a gym even after things open up. It’s so much more convenient working out from home.

I can’t really state that I have lost weight. While I have been great with fitness and feel stronger than ever, the Covid pounds have been really adding on. I have steadily been gaining weight partly due to various online food delivery businesses offering terrific discounts on home delivery. Previously, food I would never get to eat unless I physically went to a particular place is now available on hand whenever I feel a craving. So, yes, there has been a steady delivery of freshly baked cookies, croissants, pastries, and more to my house.

Not a great idea, I know. But a little carb keeps the anxiety at bay. And as of now, I have accepted this eating of my feelings.

Cooking

I haven’t been cooking as much as last year, but I still have been enjoying experimenting with more exotic dishes. Some pretty good recipes (such as this one) are available at The New York Times recipe site, and BBC Good Food is also a great resource. Both sites have plenty of vegetarian options and offer ingredient substitutions – much required with all the food shortages around. Yep, food shortages are a real thing.

Blogging

Blogging has gone by the wayside. Partly, it’s because of the feeling that no one reads blogs anymore. Or at least, no one is reading my blog – going by the drop-in visits. Heck, I have been hanging out more on Instagram myself. Of late, though, Instagram has not been appealing much. Though I still scroll Instagram, I find it less and less engaging these days. I had an interesting conversation with a friend who manages a nice marketing budget that Instagram advertising/sponsorships aren’t converting as they used to. This doesn’t surprise me; I always felt that there was a minimal genuine conversion in Instagram anyway – and definitely not reflecting the big numbers that Instagrammers claim.

Anyway, I thought I’d wake up the blog a bit. One reason why my blogging went through a slump was the complicated themes I was using. It made things so heavy and clunky, and I felt I was focusing more on the look of things than the actual content. So, a change in appearance was in order, and I have gone back to an older idea – a simple blog layout organized by date and with widgets and everything. Back to basics!

And just that change inspired two long-ish blog posts in two days. I am quite happy with the simplicity, and hopefully, that means more blogging from my end.

I have been struggling with reading quite a bit. I had a decent reading start, but I have been having concentration issues as the lockdowns started. It also doesn’t help that Netflix has had some really excellent content lately.

There’s also been some difficulty finding good books. My local library’s supply chain has been hit, and they haven’t been able to procure new books in quite some time. I am really avoiding buying new books as it’s just a huge strain storing them. My bookshelves are groaning. We have three bookworms in the family + plus school textbooks + coloring books, + stationary – it’s just getting out of control.

I am thinking of biting the bullet and just getting a Kindle and loading books on it. Yes, I am a book blogger without a kindle – an abnormality, I know!

Anyway, I started this lockdown with the Agatha Raisin series by M.C Beaton, which is light and pleasant and not too demanding. At any other time, I would have complained about the overly simplistic plots and writing. But at this point, it really hit my sweet spot.

I also finished Macbeth by Jo Nesbo – a modern retelling of Macbeth – starts slowly but builds a good, slow burn. I enjoyed it overall.

Apart from books, I have been reading long-form articles on the web – the more scurrilous and gossipy, the better 😀. Some recent articles I liked:

And that’s pretty much what we have going on here. It’s been a struggle – mental health-wise. But I think it helps just a bit to jot down what I am thinking and feeling and sort through the mental chaos.

How have you all been coping? What are you doing? How are you feeling? Eating? Shopping? Reading? Do you have any favorite recipes easy recipes you can share (I should have asked this long ago!)

28 comments

Add Yours
  1. emman damian

    I picked up some of the things in your list too. I think in general, COVID-19 has been very life changing and a game changer for sure. We need to be more careful this year.

    • Nish

      I would love it more if I was successful at it. I am just getting into it because of lockdown. Hopefully, I get better at it.

    • Nish

      Where I live, there is severe shortage of vaccines. I have been told to wait 90 days before even attempting a second shot. And there are many who haven’t even got their first shot yet. It’s frustrating. Thankfully, most of the above 65s are fully covered.

  2. Mae

    Reading helped me get though this pandemic! We really need to do something, anything to keep us all sane.

    • Nish

      I wish reading helped me more. Mostly, I have been binge-watching crap. But I am trying to read more.

  3. Neha Tambe

    I was nodding my head at each point that you were mentioning. I too went from cooking, chilling, bingewatching to ignoring my blog. But now things seem to be getting back on track.

  4. Eileen Mendoza Loya

    Like you, I have turned to gardening to keep my sanity. I have a lot of flowering plants and currently watching videos on how to create bonsais. It helps me relax and I feel happy seeing my plants thrive and bloom. Blogging has also taken the backseat (for now). Hopefully I get to find that motivation again to sit down and write.

    • Nish

      I wish I could say all of my plants are blooming. Some are doing great, some are ok, and a couple of them are dying 😔. It’s my first time taking care of plants and it’s a lot harder than I thought.

  5. kidneyfornikki

    Your COVID experiences mirror mine so much! I have been exercising but I have been eating too! LOL My daughter has been struggling but in-person summer school starts for her on MOnday so she will get to go back to school (she is vaccinated). I spent my time writing a book instead of reading — I guess that was the main difference. Thanks for sharing!

    • Nish

      Vaccines are in real short supply here. I am still waiting for my second dose, and I think kids will be vaccinated only by end of year or maybe even next year. Really looking at a pretty long period of lockdown here 😟

    • Nish

      Wow! That’s productive. Writing a book during lockdown is a BOSS move!

  6. Doris Jean

    I love your honesty. Blogging is definitely not what it use to be but can be relevant if using SEO. Blogs are now more so to answer what people are searching.

    • Nish

      I know, and my blog has always been more of a personal blog – with some reviews and stuff. So, I am pretty much writing for myself these days 😬

    • Nish

      Sad but true. I miss the good ole days of personal/semi-personal blogging. There was so much interactions then.

  7. Lizzy

    Great post. I completely relate to what you said about Covid creeping into family and friends did this year. I love your plants and have been considering taking up gardening. It’s supposedly therapeutic and I love plants.

  8. Ivan Jose

    I appreciate reading posts about life updates. I love the authenticity. Here in my country, people are so crazy about plants during the quarantine. With regard to blogging and social media, I agree that Instagram seems to have lost its appeal. I haven’t been enjoying Instagram lately. I wish blogging will make a big comeback. What I like is the good old blogging days in which people share real stories and real life updates. And there’s genuine engagement.

  9. Nikki Hall

    I also started gardening during lockdown. We re-did our patio and I added some plants including herbs, it’s been really nice!

  10. Kuntala

    It has been so easy to fall off of blogging this year. I’ve really had to push myself because the stress has really sapped my creativity.

  11. Ben

    I have so many books i want to read, but it’s been so hard to make time to read any of them. Thankfully, that’s because work has been doing well. I know that’s not the case for so many.

  12. Archana K B

    The post pretty much sums up most of the blogger’s state of mind. New social media taking over and the good old times when we felt that there were readers for our blog… all hits the nail. The times are scary and hence let’s hope we can safely cross over the tide

    • Nish

      yes, we long-term bloggers are really wondering who we are talking to nowadays 😊. With Covid though, I think I am taking more refuge in blogs though, as the social media is either escapist or alarming.

  13. Jenny @ Reading the End

    I love the new look! And I am sending you and the family so much love — the situation in India sounds just terrifying, and I just hate it for everyone. It’s no wonder that you’re having mental health struggles, and I just hope you’re able to carve out some pockets of peace and self-care. Hug hug hug.

    • Nish

      Jenny, thanks so much for the hugs and wishes. I guess our situation is pretty dire now. What angers me, is it needn’t have been. Sure, cases can be high, but it’s ridiculous that with so much time on hand, we didn’t prepare for oxygen, medicines, vaccines, etc. So angry with our current set of politicians.

Leave a Reply